In 2000 and 2001, Michael Jackson sat down with his friend and spiritual confidant Shmuley Boteach to record a series of intimate and revealing conversations. The resulting 30 hours of tape present the pop icon at his most forthright, as he discusses his emotional pain and profound loneliness, his longing to be loved, and the emptiness of fame. Boteach walks Jackson through the most difficult moments of his childhood, his tortured relationships with his siblings, and the hurtful conflict with his father. The singer also discusses, in his own words, his distrust of women, his views on God and religion, and his terror of growing old. These pages provide startling insight into the inner life of one of the most famous, celebrated, controversial, and enigmatic performers of all time.